It's a new chapter

"If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me" Deuteronomy 4:29
"Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart" Psalm 37:4
"For it is I who gave you those desires" Philippians 2:13

Dear, father.
I know you knew me even before I conceived this to you.
My heart shout loudly to seek for your guidance.
My spirit crying and looking its shepherd.
I wish you will wipe away every tear from my eyes and take away all the pain inside here.
Because I believe you won't let me down and carry all this burden in my shoulder alone.
To night, right in the new chapter of June, I believe the light will brighten my way.
The only hope for the new beginning is "I hope I am deserve to have it and I hope this is the time for me"
Father, show me the way and I will follow you.

Love,
your lovely daughter

Quote from 5th Sunday of Lent

"Let me move the stone and heal all of your sins"

-by father-

Believe Me!

When everyone said it's impossible, i believe it is possible.

When someone said 'nothing you can't do', i believe there is a miracle come sooner or later.

Because I believe He listens to my wish everyday.

I believe He will come and touch my life and show the miracle happen.

Because He is the King of Almighty.

He is our savior who will never leave us alone.

This is why I believe on Him.

He is real on my eye.

Dear God, please let my parents enjoying their old life without any sickness.

Please let them be happy like what I hope because it's their honor for being a great parents.

I love them like how I love you, God. In the name of God, I pray to you! Amin.

Love Letter for Him ^^

'Am I listening to Him?'

' What do I pray for?

'Will he forgive those my sins?'

' Is that the right way or the Truth?'

' What is the truth?'

Open up your heart, and lift up your heart. Let's make the movement of God spirit come into your soul.

(Quoted form Father speech, 24 May 09)

*The angles that color my life*

I felt empty... I felt there's a lot of space here.. Loneliness of something..

Eventhough this week was really pack for me, but I felt nothing..

Tiredness  is my result and some experience from my company.

I am appreciate with all of this new experience.. 

I will gain new lesson after I came back from my intern field and I belive that.

On top of that, I felt there's something goes wrong to me.

First of all, I am really proud to have those big miracle and an extremally blessing from Him.

When I went down and begging on my knee..

When I felt really down and depress, He sent me a few angles to help me and save me.

Well, I should said this to all of them..

Thank you so much to my Mum, Dad, Sis, and my bro...

They all are my heroes that gave me support and made me strenght with this reality.

And of course, my beloved friends: Vinny, Nadia, Mami Elaine, Jane, Casper, Max, etc.

Thanks for the advices, supports, and they made me became a new Christin.

Christin that never give up and always smile.

=)

Thanksssss a lot guys, I am really appreciate with these... 

Thats friends are for. 

They always beside us when we down and help us to find the right direction.

 ( Love you guys! You are the best! ^^)

And finally, 

thank to Mr.W to help me. 

Thanks a lot for your help and made me a bit chill down at that time. 

And you know what? 

I had decided to choose my current company which is Asia PR at Ampang. 

I admit that it is very very far away and ofcourse it costly. 

I need to sacrifice with my decision.

 I haven't give up yet because I knew, what I have done I need to responsible for that. =) 

What do I need right now?

Obviously, I need more rest because I am really tired to do travelling for 6 days in 1 week.

And I also need to do my logbook for my college report.

But, the most importantly, I need Him.

To fill up my empty heart and grow the spirit in here.

I am seeking for the truth. And I am looking for the lightness.

Listening his voice and his question are the simple way to knew him.

Basic Question that we need to think of:

'Am I communicate with him?'

I miss Him and I really love Him.

I believe, He loves me more than I do.

Thanks Jesus, You are my savior. 

-Love, Your daughter-

^^

Life for me is a miracle. The secret that human can't ever know.

The truth that He need us to know which is He love you.

Cheers, people..!! ^^

It's the time..!! =)

Letter for HIM

There's a thousand mails i need to tell HIM

There's a lot of questions i need to ask HIM

There are thousand or million words i wanna talk and chit chat with HIM

And right now, in this time, and this moment, I can't ignore it anymore.

I knew, time just gone and pass by like that.

I couldn't hold the time and begging it to stop for a while.

But, I need and I wish I could..

I wish I can freeze the time and make anything in silence mode.

I need time for my self to be alone, I need some time to relax.

Gosh! I am freak off.. I just felt anything that I did is nothing.

I am mad. I wanna yell', cryin',  screamin'..

Dear, My father

I knew, I have been escape from you

I run  away and ignore you for the long time.

I just too exacting with my world activities and never turn back to hear your call.

I miss the time when I did conversation and told anything that I want share with you.

I miss you, Lord.

I really miss you and need you rite now.

Your child is having a big problem.

I don't know, i felt this sems is just a freakin' sems.

I couldn't breath, I couldn't smile, I couldn't think properly.

I knew I wrong to crushed and thought everything was worst.

But, 

Can I just breath for a while?

Sometimes I need rains for clear all my burden and wash my sin from all that i have been do.

I want to freeze the time, I wanna walk under freezing time and feel this world is just mine.

I wanna breath deeply and think 'My life is just awesome and wonderful'

God, Could do that?

Could all my wish happen?

I am really not in a good condition.

All the pain is just shouting out and wish everything wishes could be come true..

But, in the end I knew..

All I need is You, Lord.

I knew, I need to come home and leave inside with you.

I need you immediately, rite now and this moment

because I can't stand without you.

My tasks and my responsibilties are waiting for nicely in their line.

They need me to finish all this tasks so that I can feel better.

But rite now, I need HIM in here to make me calm down, cheers, and change me to be an old Christin.

Christin that full of smile, passion, and psitive thinking.

Well, I hope this letter will arrive in the right place.

I hope he's listening right now.

and I hope my life will getting better after all this storm and thunder shouted me.

I hope this letter will bring me into a next level whereby I feel safety and no more pain in here.

I miss you,

and I need you..

*Cheers*

Aya

New Lessons

28.03.09

Yesterday was Saturday (28.03.09). I spent my time in my room, cleaned up my house, watched dvd ( My wife is A Gangster), joined earth hour, and watched movie in cinema with a few buddies.

Well, comment about Earth Hour 09 for over all, I would like to say a few of us didn't respect into this action. Im not judging all of us didn't care about our earth, but I just disappointed with the results around my neighbour. 

Well, as I know, mostly people has been shift to Suriamas, just opposite my condo. Honestly, my mum want me to move as well. So that, I can get single room and importanly is easy to clean the room. Yeap, I agree with my mum. Over 1 year, I was staying unisex house and I felt it is a bit hard for me especially when housekepping system. I am not expect all people in the house HAVE to clean our house every day, but at least most of them could participate to sweep and mop the floor. or just throw the rubbish and clean up 

the kitchen.. I am not Ms.clean and perfect of cleaness.. but, I am sensitive with that. I had alergic of dirty condition. This is the reason why I am particular of cleaning my house. A bit tired sometimes, to remind one of my housemate. I am really tired to argue with him most all of the time. Quiet and take action are my way to solve this problem. No matter what, I have to do that because I had alergic.

*Sigh

Backward, almost one week or ten days after my parents left, I had been stayed

 at home after class finished. My assignments and tired are the reasons why. After 

passed up two assignments in the same day on Friday, I decided to hang out and smell the freedom in weekend. I went watched movie with my friends. 

Introduce, KnOwing by Nicholas Cage...

Synopsis:

In 1958, as part of the dedication ceremony for a new elementary school, a g

roup of students is asked to draw pictures to be stored in a time capsule. But one

 mysterious girl fills her sheet of paper with rows of apparently random numbers inst

ead. Fifty years later, a new generation of students examines the capsule's

 contents and the girl's cryptic message ends up in the hands of young Caleb Koestler....

Check it out this trailer link:

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHw8URgDvxM

The duration of this movie is around 1hours 45 mins. 

First time when Mario told me the synopsis of this movie.

 Vinny and Me were wondering this movie will be Alien movie, coz Mario said so. But, during the movie was... 

I screamed and I was totally scare because of the visual and sound effect. 

My comment about 'Knowing', for over all is nice. Two thumbs up...! 

But, I didn't really like sounds effect of this movie.. It's too loud and make us scare.. 

My wish when this movie, when will this movie ended? I am frustated looked into the accidents..

Well, I made my own conclusion about this movie. 'Knowing' for me personally, gave moral meaning.

It was talked about Message from God to all of us. 

This world one day will ended,just like what wroten in the bible.

I believe, all of us knew about this and we scared of it. In this movie, the producer is combining the message with science term. 

By knowing that God has been telling us about his message.. God give us and signal and left the key for us. Through this movie, the key is number. Only selected people could safe. Those who believed they are the selected one.

Those who believe but have not seen!

John 20:29 Jesus saith unto him, Thomas,

 because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.

 In this story, people that have a talent had been label as CRAZY people, just like Lucinda. She is the girl that wrote the numbers. The numbers are the real fact about disasters and it's the signal of the end

 of the world. Nicholas Cage as the science has been found and believed the world will destroy by sun heating. 

In the end, only his son and the small girl safed. What is it mean? Does it mean only small kid will safe the end of the world later?

According to Romans 8:28-30 (King James Version)

 ²⁸And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

 ²⁹For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.

 ³⁰Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.

Bear in mind, I was wondering, is this the sign of us that the end of the world will come? Global warming is the key. But, not all of people in this earth are care about that. 

Just like my experience, I have been asking a few people that I met and I knew, and asked them 'Will you join Earth Hour later at nite?' Nicer answer is, 'What is that?'

Well, this is not their mistake that they didn't know about these. But, hey! are u really didn't know or just don't care about these? Just do a small thing can effect our life. Just switch only 1hour, it doesn't really bring terrible impact for us. We won't die without AC, laptop or fan. 

Apart of it, Sunway piramid has been sign up and did it. 

*A bit blur, taken by my phone*

*Petition*

PS: I glad could encourage other people to care about world, earth, and their Life especially.

Bear in mind, we are weak, but we deverse to be stronger..!! ^^

*Cheers*