Letter for HIM

There's a thousand mails i need to tell HIM

There's a lot of questions i need to ask HIM

There are thousand or million words i wanna talk and chit chat with HIM

And right now, in this time, and this moment, I can't ignore it anymore.

I knew, time just gone and pass by like that.

I couldn't hold the time and begging it to stop for a while.

But, I need and I wish I could..

I wish I can freeze the time and make anything in silence mode.

I need time for my self to be alone, I need some time to relax.

Gosh! I am freak off.. I just felt anything that I did is nothing.

I am mad. I wanna yell', cryin',  screamin'..

Dear, My father

I knew, I have been escape from you

I run  away and ignore you for the long time.

I just too exacting with my world activities and never turn back to hear your call.

I miss the time when I did conversation and told anything that I want share with you.

I miss you, Lord.

I really miss you and need you rite now.

Your child is having a big problem.

I don't know, i felt this sems is just a freakin' sems.

I couldn't breath, I couldn't smile, I couldn't think properly.

I knew I wrong to crushed and thought everything was worst.

But, 

Can I just breath for a while?

Sometimes I need rains for clear all my burden and wash my sin from all that i have been do.

I want to freeze the time, I wanna walk under freezing time and feel this world is just mine.

I wanna breath deeply and think 'My life is just awesome and wonderful'

God, Could do that?

Could all my wish happen?

I am really not in a good condition.

All the pain is just shouting out and wish everything wishes could be come true..

But, in the end I knew..

All I need is You, Lord.

I knew, I need to come home and leave inside with you.

I need you immediately, rite now and this moment

because I can't stand without you.

My tasks and my responsibilties are waiting for nicely in their line.

They need me to finish all this tasks so that I can feel better.

But rite now, I need HIM in here to make me calm down, cheers, and change me to be an old Christin.

Christin that full of smile, passion, and psitive thinking.

Well, I hope this letter will arrive in the right place.

I hope he's listening right now.

and I hope my life will getting better after all this storm and thunder shouted me.

I hope this letter will bring me into a next level whereby I feel safety and no more pain in here.

I miss you,

and I need you..

*Cheers*

Aya