in recent thought

Here are some random thoughts:

• -sharing will enrich everyone with more knowledge- (Wenger, E.)
• "If a man really wants something he will find a way, if he doesn't, he will find an excuse"
• Any fool can know. The point is to understand - (Einstein, A.)
• Lastly, "Too much of anything is bad, but too much good whiskey is barely enough" - Mark Twain

:best regards from the bored-ness palace:

A lady with zillions thoughts on her shoulder.

Ms. Ginger is sitting on her favorite black couch just like the usual days. But today's environment wasn't as fresh as the past few days. Her eye is stunning on the television, seeing the actress and actors quarrel and crying. But I knew her mind isn't there. She was scrubbing her forehead for few times and I heard the sound of sigh for quite sometimes.

When I walked side by side yesterday, I was holding her arm and I could felt she decreased lots of weight. It's not her wants to do diet but due to overloaded stresses, perhaps.

For a lady who had just got left behind by the other half of her, I think it might be a miserable life and a tough one. In the past few years, she had to carry a big burden like she promised at church "To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part." As the result, she really did her job and completed it. She had take care of Mr. Ginger faithfully and honorably every day without fail. Back to eight months ago, right after Mrs. Ginger saw her husband turned to be ashes, she knew that it was the time for her to start all over again by her own and another deadweights are waiting for her.

Day by day, she still look strong: She went to office everyday. She went to few places to settle everything that she had to clinch with. She took care of her daughter who about to get deliver baby. And during her busy days at office, she has to take care of her grandchildren and her beloved daughter. If I might conclude, Mrs. Ginger is a mother with zillions tasks that she had to handle by her own yet she never gave up.

She has a good character as a leader in family. She likes everything straight to the point and clear. She is liberal and open minded yet her ancient Chinese thought is still belong to her. And she's not a bias person. She will complain and critic if the thing doesn't go well. She will apologize if she knew she had done something wrong. And she will keep quite and put a flag of war if you did something wrong and never apology to her. Well, this is where I think some of her attitude goes down genetically to her children.

Indeed, there are lots of people sympathy towards her conditions including me. This is where I started to put a side of my dreams, ego, and emotions. I decided to agree with her negotiation, followed her directions and ambitions. And so the rest of Mrs. Ginger's children did the same thing. No one gonna leave her alone and every body are trying to make her happy for the rest of her life. In fact, life isn't that flat. Argument, conflict, disagreement always came out in every seconds of our life. Yet, Mrs. Ginger always look tough and strong.

But, no no.. No body knows how much tears has dropped on her chick right after half of her beloved one has gone? What I knew was in the past few days she was really sad and frustrated. She closed her eyes and pretending that she's sleeping yet her tears came out one by one. And yeah, I noticed she wants to wipe out her sadness away yet she couldn't. She looks black out! Just like what I described above. If I might look through inside her brain and heart, I guess there are lots of questions marks, doubts and confusions in her minds.

I might tell that she's thinking hardly to make sure that her family, her career, and her future plan could continue smoothly. Yet, no body could know what is in someone's mind even facebook! :x Because obviously Mrs. Ginger won't post her doubts in facebook, right?

Anyways,

Forgive me if I couldn't do anything to make you happy or clear up all your doubts.

My mouth couldn't open to say something good and to make your heart calm.

My hand couldn't move to massage your heavy shoulder and make it lighter.

But my prayers will always go for you. I always hope it won't be any tears came out from your eye because you had suffered enough in the past. I hope you could enjoy your oldies time just like your dream.

And lastly, I hope that our family won't be tears a part because we had you and daddy.

Love story,

from someone who always love you, mom.

Your daughter.

a.stroy.about.us

I don't know wat's wrong with blogger today and it made my pictures so damn cacat! :(

A song that really made up my day.

It was post up by one of my friends in facebook. This song has really have deep meaning for me.
It has changed my day and it made me stronger.
Thanks for the sharing! :)

Imissyou,daddy.

Noted: I noted for those who always supported me when I am down.
Thanks for your care through sms, bbm, chatting, or so watever.
All of you are angels for me! :)
Hope the best for my next future plan. :)
Being optimism is my plan until next weeks.
God bless me and all of you =D

Love,
your lovely daughter.

Previously

@2010, I did have long hair

imissyou

Dear daddy up there..

I feel dejavu.

This situation is exactly like how I feel in the past two years ago.

But it is different now.

You were here two years ago; gave me spirit and motivated me.

You said everything will be OK and your words really boost me up.

I miss you right now.

How I wish you could call me right now and repeat your words to me: "don't worry dear, daddy is here for you"

How I wish it wasn't only a dream.

How I wish it could turned to be a reality.

And again imissyouallthetimedaddy.always.

Love,

your naughty daughter here

tick tock tick tock

hellow yellow dirty fellow.

Life must goes on.. no matter how stuck it will be.

In two more weeks started by today, me and my classmates are going to be hallelujahhh! :)

Quoted from Jane (2011), we need to appreciate our last final assignment.

We need to do it properly, give creativity thought and critical analysis to score it.

I am about in to this level, but the thing is I am stuck with the ideas.

The motivation was there but then again 'clueless' came and broke my fortress.

I think I am going to miss this kind of situation one day :)

wishing all the best for all of us in term of assignments and internship! :)

have a nice day in this week, people! :)

*well, i haven't get any placement yet!* sigh...

Angels

Now! Let me share a good news to you.

Just about few hours ago, a small cute little baby has born into my family :)

This time is a boy. Unpredictable time to get deliver today. But again, it's a good news for us.

1 people has gone, 1 new comer has born and replace him.

He was exactly like how i thought, he will be look similar like my sister.

In the other words, my sister is a photo-state of my father.

So, equally.. this boy represent my daddy appearance! :)

Sounds like a crazy thought, so please ignore it. It was just on my mind, anyway! :)

So, let me introduce my new nephew. His name is William Unardi (follow his daddy sir name). He was born in my hometown, Padang, West Sumatra, Indonesia with 2.1 kg and 41 cm long at 4pm, 19 May 2011.

To be conclude, in 22 years old, I am officially have 1 niece and 1 nephew which means I am growing older and oldddd... Importantly, I feel bless for his appearance in to our family. May he could swept away all the tears and sadness previously and change it to be a joy and happiness among us! :)

William Unardi

Look at William face, fresh from oven and I feel like eating his cheek. :)

Lethicia Kang

She is currently 8 months and the first word that she said was D.A.D.A means bye bye

and I wish, second word will be K.O.C.I.K which means aunty Christin :)

God Bless them! :)

Love,

young aunt Christin

The world is busy

On 29 April 2011, while British were busy celebrated Prince William and Princess Kate's wedding, Malaysians and Singaporeans also busy queuing for iPad 2.

Today, 2 May 2011, when Malaysians are enjoying their holiday due to Labour day and Americans are busy to celebrate the death of Osama bin Laden in Pakistan, meanwhile there are some few groups of Communication students hectic doing their mind blasting 3000 words with no clue and lack of confident.

What a world,man! God Bless of us around the world. Halleluya!

Worst

Dear God,

I need your guidance to give me strong, confident, and passion on doing this research.

I am getting confused and doubt my self with 0% result written in my paper today.

How sick I am today! :(

Christin's Theory

Read lots of journals motivated and inspired me to come out with my own theory.

"Cut hair = throw bad luck" (Christin Kang, 2011)

If last time I insist to keep long my hair, now I insist to cut short my hair without any regrets.

Hopefully my theory is applicable. :D

*My brain going to be exploded soon!*

Not cool

Holiday with 3000 words assignment is not cool at all!

(*God, help me out from this laziness circle please!*)

The day that I remembered

26.12.2010

It might be our last time to celebrate my birthday.

Therefore, I feel thankful for this opportunity to see you smile! :D

I am happy to see you happy up there.

Love you daddy.

It's been more than 2 months didn't see and talk to you.

You have no idea how badly I miss you, daddy! :(

My secret letter to you

Since sharing is caring, let me share something for you.

I've been missing like an ages from this world to hide and seek for my comfort zone.
Acceptance for the reality won't be that easy as you thought.
Loosing someone who you really love and care was terrified.
I am not asking you to have the same situation like me, but I am encouraging you to put your self into my shoe and feel how dramatic my life is.

Thousands people outside there are trying to kill themselves with various disappointment reasons while in the same time thousands people were struggling and fighting for their life to survive and stay together with their family. Can you see how dramatic our life is?

My daddy was the one of thousands people out there who fought for life and tried to convince him self that he will win this war. Let me tell you something, having the 'unwanted' colon cancer for more than 1 year was totally not fun at all. Three times operation in purpose of removing the cancers which was not successful plus four times chemotherapy which wasn't effective enough, and 18 times radiotherapy wasn't cool enough to survive in this world. Lose 35kg during 1 year wasn't a joke. Ow, not only that..... Depression, insomnia, no appetite, painfulness, vomit, and low self-esteem were a nightmare for him. Everything come together to hit and rack his heart and feel every single day.

I am not sure how was my dad feeling last time. But, one thing that I know is My Father is really a big Hero! Every single second in his life was a gold and miracle for him. To carry all the burden by himself alone was tough enough.

I hope he is in the right place right now and enjoying his victory. At least, he doesn't need to bother about the cruel world anymore. Because I belief everything that he has been through in this world last time was just a test.

He really deserve to enjoy the real result in the better place up there.

How I miss you every single day, daddy.
I am glad to have you for more than 21 years. You were really a great father for me. All this words couldn't represent what I feel right now. Only you, me, and God know our secret.
My apology couldn't complete my promises to you and I am sorry couldn't do my best when you were here with me.


Love,
Your lovely daughter who have been missing you since you left us that day.

Deo Gratias

What I need right now is just a M.I.R.A.C.L.E and H.O.P.E

It really painful when you know the truth.

It really hurt to believe, but they say 'Don't give up & keep positive thinking'

Mr. Friendly Ghost turned up 21 :)

Someone is officially turned up to be 21 years old.

He's officially became a mature man, where everything is legal!:)

It's the special day for him.

It supposed to be a surprise for him, but end up he knew it :(

A bit sad when the plan was not truly success but end up, IT WASFUN! :)

So, there are 11 of us (included, Mr. Busy Issac Lim who cant really join us on that night)

Blame me for the last minute plan, and blame me for the fun that we had yesterday night.

We decided to choose Seoul Garden with the buffet style in Puchong, IOI mall.

The food was nice especially the lamb! Love to the max! :)

The prize is equivalent with the food.

Overall, it's not bad at all. =D

We enjoy it and we have fun.

You can refill anything you like over there and it's HALAL! :)

Cheer up for the friendly ghost's special birthday! :)

Me & Him, the beloved one! :):):)

Best best friend =D

The girls at the night! :)

Animal crew! We were using the same brand at that night! WohOo..

And next, the birthday boy requested to go 'Sing K' and have fun even though we still have assignment that need to hand up by the day after tml. Yet, the treat is on him. So, we are UP & ON, baby! :)

Venue: New Way, Bandar Puchong.

Starter, with Korean Song with tittle Sorry Sorry or whatever the name is! =)

Of course, the song chosen by Ms. Chong Soo Hui.. :)

The room was getting hot and see how exciting they were! :)

Everyone sang out very loud and crazy!

Even this guy! Climb up and sang with high pitch voice! beh! :)

And of course the birthday boy too!

In the end, at 2 o'clock, Mr. Friendly ghost make a wish and blew up the candles.

It was ice cream cake by Baskin Robbin. I like the ice cream, vanilla flavor, birthday boy favorite flavor.

So, we finished around 4 o'clock in the morning, some of us lose their voice, and me my self, i fell of sleep over there! LOL..

Overall, the party was so good. It consider as a big celebration where everyone that we loved were there for you.

.....................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, darling! :)

Hope you enjoy ur day and the present too! We love you!!! <3

I am Mad

I am desperately sitting here alone with billions of thought.

Billions of thought that I couldn't transcript into few pages of essay

My mind wants to finish up all quickly.

but my brain can't respond properly.

It really slow and slow.

Just like a pentium 1 computer.

In the end, it caused me a big pressure.

I wanna scream loudly from here!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

:(

Bad saturday, EVER!

I miss when I can smile, laugh, and happy like this ( I miss you, darling!) T.T

Quote of the week

''Some of us are on the way to His house.

Some of us are in the way to His house.''

The question is 'Where are we now'?

-Quoted from Father-

a Letter in red day

sources from: http://kararasmanis.wordpress.com/page/2/

A quick update from the college life.

I supposed to continue my work by now but then I need something new to release my burden.

So, here I am.. I am writing and sharing my thought for the readers :)

Frankly speaking, this is the time where I need to enjoy my life.

In fact, it's just a few months to go till the graduation day come (hmm, like 9 months more to go?)

It became a common question for me when people asked:

Q: "So, when you will graduate,girl? Why your study is so long?

Doesn't it study overseas like in Malaysia is faster than Indonesia?"

This question is kind of an irritating question for me, where lots people will thought that I can't finish my study in time. No man! I am enjoying my study life, actually!

So I replied

A: Ow, yea. I am done with my diploma last January 2010. And it's time for me to get my degree. And dun worry I will finish my degree by next year! Just in time :) (crossing my finger)

Speaking about future is a nightmare. I am too scared for looking forward about that life.

There are only 2 options available that I need to decide: follow my hurt to find a job over here and wish that I can get a PR or at least working permit from the Gov OR I will go back home for good.

Hahahahaha... Sooner or later the truth will speak.

So, what I need to do now is enjoying my life whenever I can and try my best to score.

I might be not as clever or diligent like other students, but I am trying my best in my own way :)

Ow, one more thing that I need to share with you.

A broadcasting field is not that EASY! You need to have a talent on writing, imagination, drawing, creativity, skill on camera, and PASSION!

This is what I felt when I was doing my first assignment on IFTP.

It's fun thou but lots things to do. =D

Lastly, Happy Independence to MALAYSIA! :)

Hope there will be an improvement from Malaysia and they will growing better! =D

All the best

Love,

Aya

The truth is speaking

He inspired me and motivated me indirectly.

His spirit push up all the burden to be lighten.

He is amazing and no one will believe the miracle is growing up day to the day.

I believe in you, and he believe in you too.

No matter in which way you believe in.

Thy is always there for you.

This is magic but it's true.

p.s: no one could predict future but trough your wish and hope, the future might be possible to be true.