a Letter in red day

sources from: http://kararasmanis.wordpress.com/page/2/

A quick update from the college life.

I supposed to continue my work by now but then I need something new to release my burden.

So, here I am.. I am writing and sharing my thought for the readers :)

Frankly speaking, this is the time where I need to enjoy my life.

In fact, it's just a few months to go till the graduation day come (hmm, like 9 months more to go?)

It became a common question for me when people asked:

Q: "So, when you will graduate,girl? Why your study is so long?

Doesn't it study overseas like in Malaysia is faster than Indonesia?"

This question is kind of an irritating question for me, where lots people will thought that I can't finish my study in time. No man! I am enjoying my study life, actually!

So I replied

A: Ow, yea. I am done with my diploma last January 2010. And it's time for me to get my degree. And dun worry I will finish my degree by next year! Just in time :) (crossing my finger)

Speaking about future is a nightmare. I am too scared for looking forward about that life.

There are only 2 options available that I need to decide: follow my hurt to find a job over here and wish that I can get a PR or at least working permit from the Gov OR I will go back home for good.

Hahahahaha... Sooner or later the truth will speak.

So, what I need to do now is enjoying my life whenever I can and try my best to score.

I might be not as clever or diligent like other students, but I am trying my best in my own way :)

Ow, one more thing that I need to share with you.

A broadcasting field is not that EASY! You need to have a talent on writing, imagination, drawing, creativity, skill on camera, and PASSION!

This is what I felt when I was doing my first assignment on IFTP.

It's fun thou but lots things to do. =D

Lastly, Happy Independence to MALAYSIA! :)

Hope there will be an improvement from Malaysia and they will growing better! =D

All the best

Love,

Aya

I might be MIA for a few months or maybe a year or whatever how long that was.

But I am still ALIVE! I can breath and  smell the fresh air in the morning.

I can cooked my breakfast and went to college for the first day in 2010. Well, I wish these will be a good step for me to continue another 1.5 years a head. 

This is maybe a tough beginning for me or the rest too(i guess), but I believe we can pass through this all together.

This is our bridge to start seeking an information for the next steps.

Watch out and aware of your chances. There's a  lot and bunch of chances out there! Catch it and improve it! 

Study smart, play hard, and work hard too! 

Keep it up, world...!

I am back for my real world. How bout you?

Toddles, 

Love you! =)

"Semester over. Thanks for being my friend.

Without you guys I wouldn't be who I am today."

13 Nov 2009 ~ 14:11

(quoted from one beloved friend, Mr.XXX)

A big surprise and shock when he sent this to all of us.

I am glad to be here and stand in the circle of this relationship.

Thank you is a big credit for me.

Who am I today is also supported by them.

And I think it's my time to say 'Thank you' for all of my beloved friends.

Sweet, sour, bitter and all those feeling were always came to us.

Fighting, argue, quarrel, and disappointed were sometimes happened

among us too,but we need to learn from that.

It was a complementary powder to make our friendship taste to be a delicious friendship.

Flash back from 2,5 years ago. We didn't know each others and to be honest

I did thought wrong about my classmates.

By the times it goes and passed by please think about this:

Egoism

Ambition to be the winner

The scapegoat

Jealousy

are the most selfish characters happened among our friendship.

Didn't you think so?

However now I realize that ''Life is beautiful and amazing''.

No one could pay and buy for these experiences.

~Toddles~

2nd week of November 2009

Another week is coming...

All the best for those students that having paper for this week...

Study hard, study smart, pray hard, and play hard too! :) :) :)

The ticking time is calling us to do better than previous semesters..

Our last week for our final semester.

Always hope for the best, plan for the worst..

Toddles! =) and nitez...

Special for you: Take care and Get well soon... ^^

(Hope my dad can recover soon too! *sob*)

Scared

~~~STUDY LEAVE is started..~~~~

This is happen every morning when I open my eye and wake up

 It's because of  I remember with the term of  'INTERNSHIP'

Gosh, i never scared like this before..

Waiting for the answer...!!! I am totally hate it..!!

I bet a lot of us also do not like for keep waiting and waiting...

I am totally scared since last month. 

When my lecturers told me, 'It's the time for u to go internship'

What's across my mind?

I scared..!!

Well, think towards I will enter career wolrd sooner or later.. and hell no!!!

I felt I just a small kid that didn't know anything about it...

I am really scared.. Even when I wanna send my resume to the company..

My heart beated so fast and bad imagination came into my mind..

A few days later after i sent it to the companies.. 

Alice called me to prepare for ur interview..

Believed or not.. I am totally couldn't sleep.. 

I always think about it.. I am nervouse, scared, and no confidence at all..

Every two days I called my mum and my dad to make me came down..

Every day i texted my sis, my dad, my mum to make me stronger of those pressures..

Well, I know I just too sacred.. And yea.. I am scared.. till now...

Every time my friends asked me. 'How's ur interview?'

Hw's the results? Accepted??

*Shout loudly*

I am totally do not have idea about it..

I just wish and hope everything just be OK...

but, in the end we still can't guess the future will be..

To be honest, I did a lot mistake during the interview.. 

I just tell the truth.. Whateva i thnk, i just said it.. and well, unbelieveable..

In career job, don't be too honest in answering the question..

Spin the words.. It's important.. 

Everytime I remebered about the interview things..

I felt guilty, I wanna turned back to that time and fix anything my mistakes..

Well, I hope Mr.J will gv me the good news on Monday..

Worst come to worst, I need to find another company..

(Seriously, this is just intership and I am scared like hell)

Imagine when I faced career job, *speechless*

Wish anything will be fine and I have a big luck for this year

*Cheers*

Desperate!

Im sitting all alone in here.. Infront of my lappy..

Collecting all my passion and my good mood to start doing my assginments..

Over three hours, i have been sitting here but it didn't work at all..

I didn't feeling better.. All bad spirit just come around and keep spining around in my mind..

I hate this feeling..

I have been sigh - sigh - sigh  and sigh for thousand times...

Trying to come out and let gone all my barries..

I don't know what's wrong with me rite now...

I just felt..., I hate all this condition... 

Preview...

How did my day today?

It was good.. It walked like usual time.. Just like my college life.. Enter class, listening, meeting, chatting with my classmates and discussing a bit about my assignment..

Well, honestly I am afraid with this fact..

It's half of sems 4 already... and some of the results have been out..

I am so disappointed with my results... I am not as confident as last sems anymore..

*Sigh...

I don't know ehat should i do anymore.. I am stuck on my own way at this moment...

I hate to be like this... 

I need something to refresh my mind...

Strezz... hot air.. argghhh!!!!! Hate it...!!!!

Assignments are waiting in their line...

Fuih! two assignments must pass up on the same day by friday..

It's nt easier... since my marks is not too good... and could be not in the safe grade...

I need to put a lot of effort to reach my pass level...

aa..a.a...a..... I wanna surrender...!! 

All the things are just too dark..

When I tried to close my eyes, i just saw the failure..

Well, this is just a hopeless words... crappy words... and not good impact to myself...

But, it's the truth!

Jy Jy Jy...

Need to push myself to do the best for my self and my future....

*Praying all the best for myself too*

HEY, People...!! Let's rock your soul and your spirit..!!

No more laziness and desperate..!!

*Cheers*

Aya

^^

That's why friends are for

It seems how many times i realize time gone so fast
n i realize i am lucky to be here. where by a lot of my friends here and love me..
What kind of blessing i had...

I can see obviously when vinny, my roomate entered hospital because of her appendix.
When i said this information to soo hui, nadia and my housemates, automatically all of them came and visit vinny. Almost of my classmates came at that time such as Casper, Soo hui, Nadia, Julius, Alice, Jane, Elaine, Melvin, Issac (visited at home). In addition, all of them care about her. They all cared with their classmate. They came to hospital and accompany us there. Since you know, hospital such a boring place especially in Sunway Medical Centre. There's nothing there. Started from Ground floor, there was only Starbucks there, and 1st floor untill 5th floor are rooms for patients. Only one canteen there at level ground, and im telling you it is nt nice at all. The food at ridzuan is much better than there i think. Brought laptop, i-pod, and food are better to entertaint vinny there. Hahahaha....

Friends are the important component in our life.

Without them, i think i ll nt be here.

Without them, i think i ll nt know a part of Malaysia.

Without them, i think i ll nt be mature and being like i am nw.


A Blessing from Him
A Gift from Him
Angels from Him


That's defintion of Friend....

This picture was taking when Alice b'day
whereby we were using the same spec that being her present from us..

Clubbing time

Astro_Tour


Old_Town_coffee_1

Old_town_Coffee_2

I know one day, all of us ll be seperated and ll have our own life
Why don't we enjoy and make our limit time in this time to be a better memorize
In the future?

I LovE u guys.. & Im glad to be here with you guys.. ^^

^_^
Aya

DISAPOINTED,,,,!!!!

You know wht? Sometimes being a kind person would be a bad things for yourself. A lot of things has been happened during this sems and i wanna said,,,, I am disappointed with them and my self.

After went back from my short holiday in Raya Themes... (Thailand Family Holiday), i felt suffering with all the assginments and also quite disappointed with my friends.. Looked into my results, it's unexpected results.. HUH...!!!!!!!!!

DAMN IT...!!!!!!!!!

Nothing is easier in this life...
Without effort you won't get your achievement..
n
finally
I am here is nothing without HiM..

one thing i wanna say thank you to Alice.. she brought me to her chruch.
and Thank you to the Pastor.. He prayed for me and made my eye opened that Jesus still love me.. He never left me alone although i has been left him... Thanx so much for all this chance...

Disappointed with my self is seems like disappointed with Jesus...
However, i wanna express my self here.. i wanna say that without Jesus in my life especially for this moment i won't be stronger.. i couldn't be stronger enough to stand if lose him now.. if he didn't hold my shoulder and guide me into his way maybe i ll not be here and spread this message...

One thing i wanna said...
I LOVE HIM and HE LOVES ME..!!!!

btw, i was mention that i am disappointed with my friend..
i forgive her with all what did she did.. But, i won't trust her anymore..
she made me think bad impression to her self. I can't force my self to ignore wht has she did..
Regret will always come at the last part... Yah....!!!!! TOo bad........


^_^
Aya

Alice b'day in 20 August 08

Although i posted it lately... but at least i had something to post..
hahahaha

Today Mr. Winston saw me his video that he did. He was enthusiasm with that. However, I like what has he did...
Unfortunately, i can post it the video in here...
1st: i tried to post it twice times, but it still can't post :(
2nd: i m uploading it since 4:30 but until now it's still hasn't finish >,< (But, u guys still can see through "google-ing" video >> Alice's birthday 20 August 2008, i think this is the keyword) hehehehe =D

Who's b'day ll be the next on?
i think, it ll be Issac b'day...
I should arrange the planning since this moment... hahahaha
make him more terrible than alice.. wkkwkwkkk

Btw, i love all my classmate...
unfortunately, we can't be close like previous sems because we seldom has a same class for this sems... Anyway, friendship will never the end rite?
hahahahhahaha

So, like my wish... hehehehe =D

College stuff was good...
and Well, it is time for me to arrange my study time, coz Mid term ll be coming..
and assessments come and come...
hohohoho

hope, i can do it all with joyfulness,carefulness, and SEMANGAT...!!!! hahahahhaaha
=p


I miss my mum now...
hehehehehe [Good nite mum, i think she is sleeping now] hehehehe ^^

Hey, I'm listening

"Love me for a reason"

by Boyzone..

It's old song, but i like the rhyme and the lyrics.. hehehehe =)



^_^
Aya