Description of life

28 months for us

2011-12-03T01:02:00.004+08:00

The day you told me that you were fall in love with me.

I feel blessed.

We are counting it month by months and we are in 28 months now.

It's a long journey for us.

You were there for me when I was dropped and need you badly.

You whipped my tears away and you let me leaned on your shoulder every time I need you.

You always try to make me smile every time I started to blow up.

And your heart has led you to be passion when you have to face my kiddo personality.

There ain't no body could comfort me except you.

Thank you so much to be a hero for me.

And today, how I wish I could be there, sitting next to you and kiss you on the chick just like this picture.

I miss you and I love you!

Spirit of December

2011-12-02T23:50:00.009+08:00

I won't ask for much this Christmas.

I don't even wish for snow. I'm just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe.

I won't make a list and send it to the North Pole for Saint Nick.

I won't even stay awake to hear those magic reindeer's click.

'Cause I just want you here tonight, holding me so tight..

What more can I do?

Baby all I want for Christmas is YOU!

Theoretically, during Christmas everybody have to exchange presents and stuff.

But practically, I'm demanding to see my wishes to be come true.

In the first list, Christmas will be awesome if I'm gonna be there with you.

I'm not expecting a gift from you, I just wanna be there with you.

Listening the bell ring of Xmas celebration. Listening to your voice to sing Last Christmas song.

I don't expect you to treat an expensive dinner or buying me an expensive present.

All I want is just celebrating Xmas with something special yet simple and someone special like you.

The song above is totally representing my heart voices.

Hopefully you could understand that and may God listening to our prayer.

Remember for the past 2 years you were there for me?

In December 2009, we celebrated Xmas and we exchanged presents. That was the first time for me to celebrate a REAL Xmas.

In Dec 2010, you came all the way from KL to come and visit me and daddy in Indonesia.

That was such a blessed gift Xmas present eva. Xmas with family and the one that you love.

For every year, we had celebrated Xmas in different styles.

How I wish, we could have something special for this Xmas.

Only you and me and us.

Love,

your loved one.

Take a look and judge your self

2011-12-02T22:49:00.004+08:00

Yellow!

I'm here to share something good that might be possible to entertain you.

If you think you re an expert of music, video, or something similar into this field, please don't hesitate to give some comments on it. Or you could help them to like and share this awesome video's on fb. WHo knows they deserve to stand a chance and win from this BMW competition.

My thumb already given on the BMW's page.

Let me give a rate for this short movie: 8,97 ova 10 i suppose :p

Personally, i love the story line and the camera angle. The editing part was great as well as the music background. :)

So, why should I introduce this short movie to you?

Simple answer: 'Have you ever listen to a group band name called

Once Upon A Time There Was A Sausage Named Bob?'

Yeap, their name band is unique and incredibly the longest name I ever heard off :p

You could like their facebook pages and try to take a look into their music MV - Truth to be Told. and perhaps you gonna like it! :)

How do I know them?

hahaha.. the guitarist of Once Upon A Time There Was A Sausage Named Bob was one of my colleague in Avante. Damn! I didn't notice his long hair shows that he's a rocker! Woots! Yes, he is an expert of guitar and he has hidden talents of shooting, editing, and etc. So, we are talking to the expert now. :p

In the first place, he bribed me with free CD of their band :p. And as the result, I've been addicted listening their song every morning before I left to work.

Indeed, we are the audiences and the judges. Meanwhile, do support them, if you think they are creative, cool, and rocks! They did performed in some privates colleges and universities in Malaysia. I bet their name is getting popular day by days. Well, don't forget to reserve a VVIP's sit for me if you guys really become a Malysians' star someday :)

Amigos!

The bittersweet

2011-11-28T22:40:00.006+08:00

Hey there! '')

It's been more than a month for me to be here in Indonesia.

It feels good to come back to my hometown. I feel comfy, happy, and being blessed to be able to reunion with my whole family (i even could visit daddy at ashes house).

So,

If you ask me, is this the final journey of your chapter?

I will answer, nope.

I'm still living with my imaginary hopes and wishes.

I have thousands of plans for my future yet I've none in my mind about my current situation.

This what we called pathetic.

Frankly to speak, half of my heart is feeling empty and bitter.

It's hard to believe that I took this decision. It's difficult for me to avoid this kind of situation.

I believe it's been planned by him and now I'm following his plan.

Absolutely, I understand the meaning of 'no turning back'

Hey!

I missed all those old chapters that I've been created and filled.

Fun, joy, tears, and craziness that we had been through.

My college and uni life, internship and part time works' life.. those are bittersweet momentous.

It's kind of funny when I closed my eye and thought of my first week been in msia.

My tears dropped like a waterfalls, felt lonely, and the world was miserable.

Eventually, when I blinked my eyes, those sad stories turned to be a sweet memories.

And now, when I opened up my eye, here I am.. I missed those bittersweet stuff.

Let me share some unforgettable moment that has been recap by my lovely colleague.

Friendship never end

If you could see this video, it's gonna explained all my journey in the past three months lately.

I promise you to introduce all my lovely friends in the next post, because they had wrote something special in my heart.

I feel blessed to have all of them...

On the highlight, when somebody told you that msian are cocky and sniffy, I will prove you that ideology was wrong.

Please don't get me wrong, I'm not bias, but I'm sharing my own personal experience that gonna be wasted if I never say it out.

Thanks Lord for your stories and thanks to you everyone.

I love you guys and obviously I miss KL so much!

and so do you, dear.

miss ya.

With love from here,

Christin Natalia, Kang

A good one

2011-11-16T14:26:00.002+08:00

A simple quote that absolutely true!

If you're twenty-two, physically fit, hungry to learn and be better, I urge you to travel - as far and as widely as possible. Sleep on the floors if you have to. Find out how other people live and eat and cook. Learn from them - wherever you go. -Anthony Bourdain

A moment to think

2011-11-07T22:45:00.001+08:00

A woman came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find her 5-year old son waiting for her at the door.

SON: 'Mummy, may I ask you a question?'

MUM: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the woman.

SON: 'Mummy, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the woman said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'If you must know, I make $20 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: "Mummy, may I please borrow $5?"

The mother was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door...

The woman sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the woman had calmed down, and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $5 and he really didn't ask for money very often.The woman went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

Are you asleep, son?' She asked.

'No Mummy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the woman. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $5 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you Mummy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The woman saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his mother.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the mother grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Mummy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The mother was crushed. She put her arms around her little son, and she begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $20 worth of your time with someone you love ♥

A lady with zillions thoughts on her shoulder.

2011-10-31T20:38:00.006+08:00

Ms. Ginger is sitting on her favorite black couch just like the usual days. But today's environment wasn't as fresh as the past few days. Her eye is stunning on the television, seeing the actress and actors quarrel and crying. But I knew her mind isn't there. She was scrubbing her forehead for few times and I heard the sound of sigh for quite sometimes.

When I walked side by side yesterday, I was holding her arm and I could felt she decreased lots of weight. It's not her wants to do diet but due to overloaded stresses, perhaps.

For a lady who had just got left behind by the other half of her, I think it might be a miserable life and a tough one. In the past few years, she had to carry a big burden like she promised at church "To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part." As the result, she really did her job and completed it. She had take care of Mr. Ginger faithfully and honorably every day without fail. Back to eight months ago, right after Mrs. Ginger saw her husband turned to be ashes, she knew that it was the time for her to start all over again by her own and another deadweights are waiting for her.

Day by day, she still look strong: She went to office everyday. She went to few places to settle everything that she had to clinch with. She took care of her daughter who about to get deliver baby. And during her busy days at office, she has to take care of her grandchildren and her beloved daughter. If I might conclude, Mrs. Ginger is a mother with zillions tasks that she had to handle by her own yet she never gave up.

She has a good character as a leader in family. She likes everything straight to the point and clear. She is liberal and open minded yet her ancient Chinese thought is still belong to her. And she's not a bias person. She will complain and critic if the thing doesn't go well. She will apologize if she knew she had done something wrong. And she will keep quite and put a flag of war if you did something wrong and never apology to her. Well, this is where I think some of her attitude goes down genetically to her children.

Indeed, there are lots of people sympathy towards her conditions including me. This is where I started to put a side of my dreams, ego, and emotions. I decided to agree with her negotiation, followed her directions and ambitions. And so the rest of Mrs. Ginger's children did the same thing. No one gonna leave her alone and every body are trying to make her happy for the rest of her life. In fact, life isn't that flat. Argument, conflict, disagreement always came out in every seconds of our life. Yet, Mrs. Ginger always look tough and strong.

But, no no.. No body knows how much tears has dropped on her chick right after half of her beloved one has gone? What I knew was in the past few days she was really sad and frustrated. She closed her eyes and pretending that she's sleeping yet her tears came out one by one. And yeah, I noticed she wants to wipe out her sadness away yet she couldn't. She looks black out! Just like what I described above. If I might look through inside her brain and heart, I guess there are lots of questions marks, doubts and confusions in her minds.

I might tell that she's thinking hardly to make sure that her family, her career, and her future plan could continue smoothly. Yet, no body could know what is in someone's mind even facebook! :x Because obviously Mrs. Ginger won't post her doubts in facebook, right?

Anyways,

Forgive me if I couldn't do anything to make you happy or clear up all your doubts.

My mouth couldn't open to say something good and to make your heart calm.

My hand couldn't move to massage your heavy shoulder and make it lighter.

But my prayers will always go for you. I always hope it won't be any tears came out from your eye because you had suffered enough in the past. I hope you could enjoy your oldies time just like your dream.

And lastly, I hope that our family won't be tears a part because we had you and daddy.

Love story,

from someone who always love you, mom.

Your daughter.

Big.Jet.Plane - Angus and Julia Stone

2011-09-08T00:03:00.001+08:00

I've been addicted with this song since few weeks ago.
This song has been introduced by a friend since last few months.
The music is awesome as well as the singer voice.
It's classic and relaxing.
Sharing is caring, anyway! :)
Enjoy! :)

Love,
Aya

Next Step

2011-09-07T23:39:00.004+08:00

So..
It was September 5, 2011 and that's it...
I have hand in my report and I'm officially finished with my university life.

Next point is W.O.R.K.I.N.G

Every time I meet up with new buddy, I like to give a guess towards my age.
In average responds, they will answer either 20, 21 or 22.
I will be extremely happy when they said 'You look like 17 years old' :)
Frankly speaking, I am so scared to be in this age.
I'm officially a young adult now. I have to start to build my own career path and plan for my future.
How I wish I could execute my own plan.
Yet, faith is telling me the opposite side.
I have to follow the flow and sacrifice everything that I like.

I can't scream. I can't cry. I can't confront.
I have to face it because it's reality and it's all about respect and loyalty.
Deep down inside my heart, I am still arguing with my own self.
Is this the right path for me?
Will it be good for me in the future?
or Should I be selfish and try to rebel towards my mom and family?
Oh Gosh! No matter how long I think about this...
This matter will always screw up my mood.

I'm surrender...
I believe whenever I go and whatever I made decision..
Those are decided by God.
I believe in him and I believe his ways.
I hope everything will be better than yesterday.

Ps: I miss you daddy..

give me sometime

2011-08-21T01:01:00.002+08:00

it's been a while and finally it's finish.

i am done with my internship and i will be graduated student after i submit my report.

all i wanna share is i love my internship periode. it's kind of a short term but i really like the time that i spent with all of them. my avante's crew, the interns, the part timers, and all people that i met during the roadshow. event's life is totally amazing! :)

i feel bless with what i have now. even though there's lots of challenges but everybody are there for me. such a bless! :) thanks god! :)

noted: i guess i just spent to much time for my networking but not my self.

i really need a break for myself and just me.

i hope i have the time for that.

love,

aya

Review

2011-08-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

Hey! I just wanna share my happiness throughout all of my toughness days.
A short month with lots of challenges and new people around me but they all are awesome! :)
Thanks God for everything. I love you guys and i am super happy today. that's all! *hugs*

It's been 10 years they served us.

2011-07-21T12:02:00.000+08:00

Bless

2011-06-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

Dear Heavenly Father...
Hope everything will goes smooth and according to your plan.
I lift up my life on your hand because I believe in you.
Thank you for your blessing break for the two weeks. It was fantastic.
:)

Good night everyone.
Love you!
*All the best for those who will start their internship tomorrow*

It's unique

2011-06-22T16:04:00.005+08:00

One thing I like from Google is their uniqueness.
They have their beautiful and unique concepts where others don't have.

This is what I am talking about.. :)
If you did realized, it was shown on 9 June 2011, Google Doodle.

And today... another adorable idea of Winter Solstice is shown, 22 June 2011.
but the unique part here is "variety". Google shown different picture for different country.

1.1. Google.co.my

1.2. Google.co.id

I am not sure in the others countries, but this is what i found today. Just wanna share my thoughts here. :)
Besides, this video have inspired and motivated me to go for Google as a great place to work.

So, what do you think? :) Of course, those employees are the lucky one. To be able to work in this kind of big company is just consider as gambling. How I wish I could join this company one day! :)

Well, I am counting down my days to start working in the real life! Wish me luck! :)

PS to someone that I love: I hope he's doing well there and stay strong my boy! :) Love you.
I will always try my best to be in your side

2011-06-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

Happy father's day, daddy. Even though I couldn't celebrate with you like the others do, but my prayer will always with you. It's been more than 4 months, we didn't see each other. How I wish you are here right now and could blow candle on the written cake "Happy father's day, daddy sayang".

In the end,
I must say thank you for everything you had done to me.
Your passion and your kind-heart are always drawn in my mind.
Your positive thinking will always inspired me.
And your big eye, loud voice, and your "O" shape legs were always be my daddy forever.
Thank you for the memories.
I love you daddy.

Love,
your manja daughter who always miss you.
:)

Definition of MassComm

2011-06-05T00:19:00.002+08:00

Courtesy: Kathlyn, thePorkBurger :)

a fan's of KevJumba

2011-06-04T23:49:00.002+08:00

I start to fall in love with this 19-years-old guy, Kevin Wu! :) He's funny, creative, and looked mature. I didn't know that he's younger than me until I follow his blog. LOL.
Seriously, Youtube really has a big impact to publicize your popularity nowadays. No joke! It could make you really popular, it could make you down like trash!
A nice song for your weekend :)
Enjoy! :)

a.stroy.about.us

2011-06-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

I don't know wat's wrong with blogger today and it made my pictures so damn cacat! :(

A song that really made up my day.

2011-06-02T18:46:00.001+08:00

It was post up by one of my friends in facebook. This song has really have deep meaning for me.
It has changed my day and it made me stronger.
Thanks for the sharing! :)

Imissyou,daddy.

Noted: I noted for those who always supported me when I am down.
Thanks for your care through sms, bbm, chatting, or so watever.
All of you are angels for me! :)
Hope the best for my next future plan. :)
Being optimism is my plan until next weeks.
God bless me and all of you =D

Love,
your lovely daughter.

Thankful day

2011-06-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

Thank you for the light sign. I hope it could lead me to go out from the darkness.
I can admit today was such a blessing day for me.
A good start with happy ending story.
I wish this might not end until today only, but it will continue for the better day.
I believe in you and I love you.

Love,
your daughter.

It's a new chapter

2011-06-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

"If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me" Deuteronomy 4:29
"Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart" Psalm 37:4
"For it is I who gave you those desires" Philippians 2:13

Dear, father.
I know you knew me even before I conceived this to you.
My heart shout loudly to seek for your guidance.
My spirit crying and looking its shepherd.
I wish you will wipe away every tear from my eyes and take away all the pain inside here.
Because I believe you won't let me down and carry all this burden in my shoulder alone.
To night, right in the new chapter of June, I believe the light will brighten my way.
The only hope for the new beginning is "I hope I am deserve to have it and I hope this is the time for me"
Father, show me the way and I will follow you.

Love,
your lovely daughter

Yes, I received you as my dad, the Almighty God.

2011-05-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

Previously

2011-05-28T09:42:00.000+08:00

@2010, I did have long hair

imissyou

2011-05-25T22:33:00.003+08:00

Dear daddy up there..

I feel dejavu.

This situation is exactly like how I feel in the past two years ago.

But it is different now.

You were here two years ago; gave me spirit and motivated me.

You said everything will be OK and your words really boost me up.

I miss you right now.

How I wish you could call me right now and repeat your words to me: "don't worry dear, daddy is here for you"

How I wish it wasn't only a dream.

How I wish it could turned to be a reality.

And again imissyouallthetimedaddy.always.

Love,

your naughty daughter here

tick tock tick tock

2011-05-23T10:54:00.002+08:00

hellow yellow dirty fellow.

Life must goes on.. no matter how stuck it will be.

In two more weeks started by today, me and my classmates are going to be hallelujahhh! :)

Quoted from Jane (2011), we need to appreciate our last final assignment.

We need to do it properly, give creativity thought and critical analysis to score it.

I am about in to this level, but the thing is I am stuck with the ideas.

The motivation was there but then again 'clueless' came and broke my fortress.

I think I am going to miss this kind of situation one day :)

wishing all the best for all of us in term of assignments and internship! :)

have a nice day in this week, people! :)

*well, i haven't get any placement yet!* sigh...

Angels

2011-05-19T21:12:00.005+08:00

Now! Let me share a good news to you.

Just about few hours ago, a small cute little baby has born into my family :)

This time is a boy. Unpredictable time to get deliver today. But again, it's a good news for us.

1 people has gone, 1 new comer has born and replace him.

He was exactly like how i thought, he will be look similar like my sister.

In the other words, my sister is a photo-state of my father.

So, equally.. this boy represent my daddy appearance! :)

Sounds like a crazy thought, so please ignore it. It was just on my mind, anyway! :)

So, let me introduce my new nephew. His name is William Unardi (follow his daddy sir name). He was born in my hometown, Padang, West Sumatra, Indonesia with 2.1 kg and 41 cm long at 4pm, 19 May 2011.

To be conclude, in 22 years old, I am officially have 1 niece and 1 nephew which means I am growing older and oldddd... Importantly, I feel bless for his appearance in to our family. May he could swept away all the tears and sadness previously and change it to be a joy and happiness among us! :)

William Unardi

Look at William face, fresh from oven and I feel like eating his cheek. :)

Lethicia Kang

She is currently 8 months and the first word that she said was D.A.D.A means bye bye

and I wish, second word will be K.O.C.I.K which means aunty Christin :)

God Bless them! :)

Love,

young aunt Christin

18.05.2011

2011-05-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

It's been exactly 100 days you left us behind.

I am so sorry couldn't attend in temple today and saw you.

But my prayer always go to you in every seconds.

I miss you, handsome.

You weren't like if someone called you an old man because you have young heart inside there.

No more tears need to come out even though I really miss you every single second.

Because I know, you are really happy and enjoy your life in other world.

Hope to see you soon in the next future life.

You've drawn colorful and great history in my life.

I miss your smile, I miss your advice, and Imiss your voice.

I can't imagine how you look like now, but I hope you will be the same like the past.

Happy and strong. :) Miss you daddy.

Love from home,

your lovely daughter.

The world is busy

2011-05-02T20:45:00.002+08:00

On 29 April 2011, while British were busy celebrated Prince William and Princess Kate's wedding, Malaysians and Singaporeans also busy queuing for iPad 2.

Today, 2 May 2011, when Malaysians are enjoying their holiday due to Labour day and Americans are busy to celebrate the death of Osama bin Laden in Pakistan, meanwhile there are some few groups of Communication students hectic doing their mind blasting 3000 words with no clue and lack of confident.

What a world,man! God Bless of us around the world. Halleluya!

Worst

2011-04-30T20:40:00.002+08:00

Dear God,

I need your guidance to give me strong, confident, and passion on doing this research.

I am getting confused and doubt my self with 0% result written in my paper today.

How sick I am today! :(

Christin's Theory

2011-04-27T19:12:00.003+08:00

Read lots of journals motivated and inspired me to come out with my own theory.

"Cut hair = throw bad luck" (Christin Kang, 2011)

If last time I insist to keep long my hair, now I insist to cut short my hair without any regrets.

Hopefully my theory is applicable. :D

*My brain going to be exploded soon!*

Not cool

2011-04-27T00:33:00.003+08:00

Holiday with 3000 words assignment is not cool at all!

(*God, help me out from this laziness circle please!*)

The week - Rock and Roll

2011-04-17T21:22:00.001+08:00

Now I know why lots of chemical romance's fans are all around the world.

Shouting and rolling for them during the concert..

I can feel the spirit and get inspired by this song!

This song is totally cool and awesome! :) Check this out, peeps! :)

Like it or not.. I just love into this song after I watched Glee season 2.. (woots! Glee is so much more nice now!) :) kind of lame to watch musical drama again! but, believe me.. you will get addicted for Glee the new season! :)

Happy Easter Holiday, people! :)

Ps: I have a great Sunday services for the kindergarden kids! :)

The day that I remembered

2011-04-12T23:14:00.004+08:00

26.12.2010

It might be our last time to celebrate my birthday.

Therefore, I feel thankful for this opportunity to see you smile! :D

I am happy to see you happy up there.

Love you daddy.

It's been more than 2 months didn't see and talk to you.

You have no idea how badly I miss you, daddy! :(

Quote from 5th Sunday of Lent

2011-04-11T11:30:00.002+08:00

"Let me move the stone and heal all of your sins"

-by father-

2011-04-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

When you compare our situation and you said:

A: "At least, you DID NOT feel deeper pain compare to me because everything just flied so fast"

B: (*Inside my heart*) Ow, really? Lost someone that you loved so much also need to compare?

It's not cool enough to compare our sadness, OK!

Yes, I was sorry about the accident that happened to you yet don't think that what happened to you was the heaviest ever!

Let me share my bitterness that I've been kept for more than one year.

Tears dropped every single night. Pressure and anxious hit me every minutes to make sure that he was doing well. I had to force myself to do not cry in front of desperate 60 years old guy cried everyday. Ow, that's not enough. You must see your own self, when my dad laid down on the bed, couldn't move, in his terrible pain, and the poop came out from his torn rectal bag. Imagine I stand there all alone, waited 3 hours for my mom to come back home and together clean my dad from his smelly things.

Yes, I am angry, totally angry when you mentioned this kind of words during dad left me.

I don't like to be a comparison.

I hate when my mom compare you and me.

I hate when my bf compare me with another girls.

And I hate when you compare your life with my life.

We are different and we are unique. So, please stop comparing!

(I might be sounds very rude, but this is what I felt since `15 years ago)

tips to knowledge

2011-04-05T11:04:00.004+08:00

The fact is ....

being vegetarian for 2 weeks can totally cut down your weight without any sins! :)

ps: wish me luck for my presentation tomorrow! :X

and...

I miss you, dad! *sigh!

Happy Anniversary :)

2011-04-03T10:55:00.004+08:00

Wish everything goes smoothly! :) Love you

*please ignore the red t-shirt guy* :D

My secret letter to you

2011-04-01T22:38:00.006+08:00

Since sharing is caring, let me share something for you.

I've been missing like an ages from this world to hide and seek for my comfort zone.
Acceptance for the reality won't be that easy as you thought.
Loosing someone who you really love and care was terrified.
I am not asking you to have the same situation like me, but I am encouraging you to put your self into my shoe and feel how dramatic my life is.

Thousands people outside there are trying to kill themselves with various disappointment reasons while in the same time thousands people were struggling and fighting for their life to survive and stay together with their family. Can you see how dramatic our life is?

My daddy was the one of thousands people out there who fought for life and tried to convince him self that he will win this war. Let me tell you something, having the 'unwanted' colon cancer for more than 1 year was totally not fun at all. Three times operation in purpose of removing the cancers which was not successful plus four times chemotherapy which wasn't effective enough, and 18 times radiotherapy wasn't cool enough to survive in this world. Lose 35kg during 1 year wasn't a joke. Ow, not only that..... Depression, insomnia, no appetite, painfulness, vomit, and low self-esteem were a nightmare for him. Everything come together to hit and rack his heart and feel every single day.

I am not sure how was my dad feeling last time. But, one thing that I know is My Father is really a big Hero! Every single second in his life was a gold and miracle for him. To carry all the burden by himself alone was tough enough.

I hope he is in the right place right now and enjoying his victory. At least, he doesn't need to bother about the cruel world anymore. Because I belief everything that he has been through in this world last time was just a test.

He really deserve to enjoy the real result in the better place up there.

How I miss you every single day, daddy.
I am glad to have you for more than 21 years. You were really a great father for me. All this words couldn't represent what I feel right now. Only you, me, and God know our secret.
My apology couldn't complete my promises to you and I am sorry couldn't do my best when you were here with me.

Love,
Your lovely daughter who have been missing you since you left us that day.

Stand by me

2011-03-22T22:47:00.003+08:00

I am glad that you always stand right here besides me.

No matter how terrify the condition will be, please just stay close to me.

Just like the other day.

I love you! =D

2011-02-18T07:23:00.001+08:00

God, please made me keep stronger!

2011-01-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

I am here all alone. Stunning and thinking with all the I have done.
I know life is not this easy yet it's not that hard.
But it's hard for me to face this.
I need a shelter. I place for me to lay down my head and share this.
Without any sound, without any question.
Just a place that know me so well and it could give me a comfort.

The words of 'enough' or 'tired' won't come out from my mouth.
Because I know everything that I did wasn't good enough.
There were so much more from the past that he had done for us.
It's hard for him, it's hard for her, it's hard for all of us.

-God is really testing me now-

The end of October

2010-10-31T00:00:00.003+08:00

The time can't be stopped at all.

No matter how strong and clever you are, you can't hold and control the time.

It passed without any permission.

S.C.A.R.E.D

Lots work need to do, but yet lots of obstacles push and hit me :(

No confident, No power, and No strength. I am weak

20.10.10

2010-10-20T18:20:00.001+08:00

I love you and I miss you badly, dad! :(

i will never give up and hope for the miracle to come!

Deo Gratias

2010-10-11T00:10:00.004+08:00

What I need right now is just a M.I.R.A.C.L.E and H.O.P.E

It really painful when you know the truth.

It really hurt to believe, but they say 'Don't give up & keep positive thinking'

The end of September

2010-09-30T09:49:00.003+08:00

When Green Day says: 'Wake me up when September Ends', I am totally awake, man! :)

So, let me share something to you.

Remember when I told you about my photo competition with the Citin Hotels thingy?

Over all, out of 15 competitors there is one girl who really beatus from the last 2 days of the due date.

Gosh! I still can remember how we felt when we found outthe time was really ticking so fast. And the girl was so enthusiasm to win. She can achieve 20 people to vote for her in few mins. What amaze man! And the most stressful was we still having class till 5pm whereby the final date close at 7pm. Imagine how fast we need to rushing back for our vote.

It was really fun, exciting, yet it's stressful. A good thing from this competition?I have to begging and nagging all of my contact friends in Facebook to vote and like for our picture. And up, I can keep in touch with my old friends even though some of them claim that I only find them when I need something. hahaha :)

It's true,man! When I put my position into their side, I feel the same way too. I feel sorry about that, but at least I did update them through greeting 'Hi, and how are you' :)

So, through this tough work (when i totally ignore my assignment and only focus into this things), WE DID IT! We won and it was a relief! :):)

Next, It's the time to plan for VACATION, baby! :)

The superior pool view room for the 1st winner! :)

(sources are taken from Google)

The pool view in Citin Garden Resort

(sources are taken from Google)

So, from now onwards we can plan the vacation. Imagine the beach, free stay, and shopping! :)

And yeap, I think I need to save up from now onwards so that I can shop in Thailand.But seriously, it's worth it. Thailand clothes are selling in KL with double or triple price. So, why dun we go buy originally from Thailand then? :):)

On top of that, one thing that I need to highlight in this post is:

Today is the memorable day for us, especially for Padang people,West Sumatra,Indonesia where some of your loved one had pass away because of the tragic and awful earthquake. I cant believe that the accident was passed for 1 year already. Kind of painful when we looked back into the past where everybody were panic, cried, stress, and sad. There's nothing we should celebrate here except pray and memorize their kind things to us.

So, our authority government has set up this momentum for those who passedaway last year in the middle of our city.

The monument in memorial of 30 September 2009 in Padang City

(credits given to Marina Yori)

The List of those who has passed away

(credits given to Marina Yori)

Short speech by our President, SBY

(credits given to Marina Yori)

And the pictures of the victims.

(credits given to Marina Yori)

Overall, I just wanna say Goodbye to my friends. Jessica Susilo, Clementine Koba, Claudia Tanzil and etc. It's really painful when we heard the news that all of you has left us but one thing we need to be glad is to know you as good friends.

Goodbye friends and rest in peace.

Love,

Aya

Aunty in 21 years old! :)

2010-09-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

Look at her when she smile! =)

This cute baby is an approval that I am officially become aunty by today onwards! :)

She was born on 23 September right after the Autumn Mooncake Festival with 49cm height and 3.1kg weight. She was born normal and the mother is fine too.

What a bless for us. :):):)

Again, she is one of the reason who make our family brighter.

Another Kang was born and another girl team from Kimpo Family has been increase.

Welcome to our family, Gea.

I believe this little and tiny cute baby was sent by Him to fulfill our family joy and happiness.

I wish she will become a great one when she grew up later.

We love you, Georgia! :)

(even uncle casper also being addicted to look at your face everyday through facebook!) hahaha :):):)

I can say she's photogenic especially when she sleep! :)

A few poses proved that baby can talk and express their feeling towards us! =D

You are so cute, baby! :)

With love,

Aunty Aya =)

Mr. Friendly Ghost turned up 21 :)

2010-09-21T22:44:00.014+08:00

Someone is officially turned up to be 21 years old.

He's officially became a mature man, where everything is legal!:)

It's the special day for him.

It supposed to be a surprise for him, but end up he knew it :(

A bit sad when the plan was not truly success but end up, IT WASFUN! :)

So, there are 11 of us (included, Mr. Busy Issac Lim who cant really join us on that night)

Blame me for the last minute plan, and blame me for the fun that we had yesterday night.

We decided to choose Seoul Garden with the buffet style in Puchong, IOI mall.

The food was nice especially the lamb! Love to the max! :)

The prize is equivalent with the food.

Overall, it's not bad at all. =D

We enjoy it and we have fun.

You can refill anything you like over there and it's HALAL! :)

Cheer up for the friendly ghost's special birthday! :)

Me & Him, the beloved one! :):):)

Best best friend =D

The girls at the night! :)

Animal crew! We were using the same brand at that night! WohOo..

And next, the birthday boy requested to go 'Sing K' and have fun even though we still have assignment that need to hand up by the day after tml. Yet, the treat is on him. So, we are UP & ON, baby! :)

Venue: New Way, Bandar Puchong.

Starter, with Korean Song with tittle Sorry Sorry or whatever the name is! =)

Of course, the song chosen by Ms. Chong Soo Hui.. :)

The room was getting hot and see how exciting they were! :)

Everyone sang out very loud and crazy!

Even this guy! Climb up and sang with high pitch voice! beh! :)

And of course the birthday boy too!

In the end, at 2 o'clock, Mr. Friendly ghost make a wish and blew up the candles.

It was ice cream cake by Baskin Robbin. I like the ice cream, vanilla flavor, birthday boy favorite flavor.

So, we finished around 4 o'clock in the morning, some of us lose their voice, and me my self, i fell of sleep over there! LOL..

Overall, the party was so good. It consider as a big celebration where everyone that we loved were there for you.

.....................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, darling! :)

Hope you enjoy ur day and the present too! We love you!!! <3

Believe Me!

2010-09-14T01:36:00.003+08:00

When everyone said it's impossible, i believe it is possible.

When someone said 'nothing you can't do', i believe there is a miracle come sooner or later.

Because I believe He listens to my wish everyday.

I believe He will come and touch my life and show the miracle happen.

Because He is the King of Almighty.

He is our savior who will never leave us alone.

This is why I believe on Him.

He is real on my eye.

Dear God, please let my parents enjoying their old life without any sickness.

Please let them be happy like what I hope because it's their honor for being a great parents.

I love them like how I love you, God. In the name of God, I pray to you! Amin.

I am Mad

2010-09-11T15:23:00.004+08:00

I am desperately sitting here alone with billions of thought.

Billions of thought that I couldn't transcript into few pages of essay

My mind wants to finish up all quickly.

but my brain can't respond properly.

It really slow and slow.

Just like a pentium 1 computer.

In the end, it caused me a big pressure.

I wanna scream loudly from here!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Bad saturday, EVER!

I miss when I can smile, laugh, and happy like this ( I miss you, darling!) T.T

I am Busy

2010-09-09T21:03:00.005+08:00

Yes! I am busy since this afternoon.

Have been busy the whole day for unnecessary stuff.

So, we decided to join this competition in Facebook (another tool for any companies to promote their stuff, cool right?)

It organized by Citin Hotel and they came out with this competition called 'Take a snap, win a nap'

The rule is simple. What we need to do is just take a picture with your friend in a park and came out with the tagline 'I love to stay in Citin Garden Resort because .....'

So after we brainstorm we came out with this tagline:

'We love to stay in Citin Garden Resort because they do not give empty promises =)'

I believe our tagline is not bad compare to the rest! :)

The first winner will be able to stay for free in Citin Hotel, Pattaya for 2 nights in superior pool view and free daily buffet breakfast for two persons. Second and third winner will be able to stay for one night only.

wohoo!!! :) So, imagine tat.. How could you miss this chance? Me and my housemates has been crazy to find people for like this photo.. :)

Credit photo:

Model: Aizuddin, Jane, ALice, and Me.

Photographer: Vinny Bunny Wijaya.

Editing: Christin Natalia, Kang.

Location: LCS Kurnia Leisure, Selangor, Malaysia.

I hope we can win this competition and we can go for holiday! :)

So, without any doubt, I encourage all of you as the readers to sign in your facebook and search for 'CITIN HOTEL' and like it the page.

Lastly, please like this picture! (Click here)! :)

Your thumb is needed for us and we appreciated it! :):):)

Thankss

Have a nice day, pips! =D and happy holiday!

ow, I hope you like my new blog layout.. The header is taken in my hometown! It's a real picture anyway.. :)

Quote of the week

2010-09-08T22:18:00.003+08:00

''Some of us are on the way to His house.

Some of us are in the way to His house.''

The question is 'Where are we now'?

-Quoted from Father-

a Letter in red day

2010-08-31T22:15:00.005+08:00

sources from: http://kararasmanis.wordpress.com/page/2/

A quick update from the college life.

I supposed to continue my work by now but then I need something new to release my burden.

So, here I am.. I am writing and sharing my thought for the readers :)

Frankly speaking, this is the time where I need to enjoy my life.

In fact, it's just a few months to go till the graduation day come (hmm, like 9 months more to go?)

It became a common question for me when people asked:

Q: "So, when you will graduate,girl? Why your study is so long?

Doesn't it study overseas like in Malaysia is faster than Indonesia?"

This question is kind of an irritating question for me, where lots people will thought that I can't finish my study in time. No man! I am enjoying my study life, actually!

So I replied

A: Ow, yea. I am done with my diploma last January 2010. And it's time for me to get my degree. And dun worry I will finish my degree by next year! Just in time :) (crossing my finger)

Speaking about future is a nightmare. I am too scared for looking forward about that life.

There are only 2 options available that I need to decide: follow my hurt to find a job over here and wish that I can get a PR or at least working permit from the Gov OR I will go back home for good.

Hahahahaha... Sooner or later the truth will speak.

So, what I need to do now is enjoying my life whenever I can and try my best to score.

I might be not as clever or diligent like other students, but I am trying my best in my own way :)

Ow, one more thing that I need to share with you.

A broadcasting field is not that EASY! You need to have a talent on writing, imagination, drawing, creativity, skill on camera, and PASSION!

This is what I felt when I was doing my first assignment on IFTP.

It's fun thou but lots things to do. =D

Lastly, Happy Independence to MALAYSIA! :)

Hope there will be an improvement from Malaysia and they will growing better! =D

All the best

Love,

Aya

The truth is speaking

2010-08-29T15:12:00.005+08:00

He inspired me and motivated me indirectly.

His spirit push up all the burden to be lighten.

He is amazing and no one will believe the miracle is growing up day to the day.

I believe in you, and he believe in you too.

No matter in which way you believe in.

Thy is always there for you.

This is magic but it's true.

p.s: no one could predict future but trough your wish and hope, the future might be possible to be true.

June trip with Love to Mallaca ",)

2010-08-16T20:55:00.012+08:00

Let me tell you something, H-O-L-I-D-A-Y is always the best and the great one! :)

So let me share and describe each of them..

An half day trip to Mallaca with beloved friends: bf, Issac, Vinny, and Nadia's brother..
It was sudden plan at that time and when i called issac, he said Ok! :)
Shock! :):)

So what did we do?
The great answer is EAT - EAT - EAT & EAT
In 5 hours period times we can eat 6 different dishes.. Check this out!

Chicken rice ball & Cendol gula Mallaca

Asam Laksa + Cendol

The best popiah ever + Satay celup, Capitol

Holland wanna be and the beach! :):)

It was great and tiring day, my tummy was so so big that day and i couldn't remember when the last time i ate that much!

5 stars for this trip...

another trip will coming up! :)

2010-08-16T09:34:00.003+08:00

'God is amazing '

He's understand us and he always listen to us.

No matter how hard are you now, he will answer your pray.

I believe miracle will always come and touch us.

And it's work! :)

What a wonderful plan..

Happy Birthday, Daddy <3

Hope you have a long life and you can enjoy your day without any burden at all.

I miss you! :(

With Love,

your daughter

Unbelievable

2010-08-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

Frankly speaking, I don't like to start class.

I am not ready to do all the assignments stuff.

I am not ready to sit in front of my laptop everyday to continuing all the tasks.

And my brain agree with that.

My brain is still enjoying the holiday season.

The warm weather and sand, beautiful scenery, sunset..

Food and food.. wufff!! *sigh

Those kind of stuff are still inside my brain freshly.

I wish I still can extend my holiday for 1 more week.. :(

But,it's unbelievable.. the time flies thousand fast than what i thought.

I have class tomorrow and like it or not, my brain still need to wake up and face the fact! :(

I wish everyone luck and a new spirit for tml. Have a nice day, people! :)

Start to love your day with saying I love my life! =D

(have a nice day today and have a nice chat with every one!) really love my day! wohoo ~~~ :)

Good night!

Love,

Special message for you, uncle

2010-07-31T23:05:00.004+08:00

He has left us...

He has written a big memory inside of our family..

He was a good man. A brave man. and the greatest uncle,ever.

No body are believed with this news.

He was there with my parents went for vacation in Bandung.

But no body knew about God plans.

God has called him last night in the middle of the oldies vacation.

I believed God will say: "Your job has been done, my son. It's time for you to come back with me"

A big punch has attack and hit us. It's really a big pain for my aunt and my cousins..

I can understand how their feeling to loose a father, the man who they loved. So do we..

We has lost the humorist uncle ever...

Just a few months ago we met up, and u promise me to come back again to padang and gathering again. You promise me to see me and febri graduate together.

We love you, uncle. We really do.

See you in the next life and thanks for take care my daddy and my mum while they were in Jakarta... Thanks for everything that u had sacrifice for us. Thanks for all your time to spend with us. Thanks for all your joke and your experiences stories, I will miss you, uncle..

Be strong aunt, febri, edwin and david.. You still have us.. Our big family will always with you.. =D

Good bye uncle, rest in peace.. Your name will always inside our heart because you deserve it.

We love you, uncle..

With love, on be half of Kang family to Tanzil family..

(I wish I am there right now.. share my shoulder with my family... but I believe through my pray and my message, they can be strong and uncle will be there right besides him. Goodbye uncle.. I love you)

Tanzil family, we lost one member kimpo family.

Our last gathering picture.. We love you, uncle.. Rest in peace..

2010-06-21T00:50:00.002+08:00

Here we go! A quick post :)

Finally, it's the end of the semester one in my UniSA life..

Honestly, it's really killing me... Life with no fun, no entertainment, stressful, rushing up with the time and assignments, and end up ~~ big eye's bag, uncontrollable hair drop, and heart attack when i saw my first assignments result.... Even though some people don't worry about their result, but I do. No matter how hard I did my assignment with those kind of suffering night and pressure, parents and all people out there will only see the end of the result. HD means u are good, P2 or fail means you are stupid or lazy. Prejudice! huh... But, it's the reality, you can't take away people perception towards your mark... So, believe me, if the results are not good, I am gonna crush my own self, man!!! :(

(I hope next sems, it won't be this hard because I am gonna dying soon) *>*

Anyway, a part of that, today friends Langkawi trip gang coming back to KL...

Hope they were really enjoy their holiday and have fun over there.. Drink, chilling, have fun! that's what I miss too.. I hope I can enjoy that one day...

Take care, guys.. Better coming back here soon ya! =D

Have a safe journey.

With love,

Aya

It's weekend, Baby!

2010-06-12T20:59:00.006+08:00

I am not sure which spirit had forced me to open Adobe Photoshop.

Through an idea from Ms. Gonza, I have came out with this picture!

Playing around with color is really interesting!

The power of photo manipulation

Happy Weekend people....

Love,

Aya

It's a summer reading for you!

2010-06-12T12:24:00.007+08:00

I should confess something for the readers about this..

I have spent four days to finish up this book.

It called as 'Perahu Kertas' in English you can call it as 'Paper Boat'. =D

The author is Indonesian, her name is Dewi Lestari, well known as Dee.

It really an interesting book that I ever read.

It could be your reading in this summer holiday, tho! :)

Few months ago I was told by one friend that have recommend this book to me.

Supported by my beloved sister, she agreed that Dee is really a good writer.

She transcript her imagination about the main character by describing it through words.

Why is it call as 'Boat Paper'?

One of the main character believed that she is the assistant of Neptunnus, the Roman God of the sea. The God has sent her into the world to be the secret agent therefore she need to report for Neptunnus everyday about her life.

How's she do it?

A paper and words. She will tell Neptunnus about her feeling like a diary. She will flip it to be a paper boat, and she will send it via sea or river (as long it is water and it can go to the sea) and she believed Neptunnus will read it. :) She believed only 'Aquarius' folks could be the agent of Neptunnus.

I supposed to upload the one that I took with my darling, C-902,

but it was gone and no chance to transfer it.. :(

All over the story is about life, art, love, destiny, and your heart.

It begin from wrinkled yarn that the end become a happy ending story.

The story is according to the order. She can guide us from 1999 until 2005 with her fresh idea.

In the range between 1-10, I gave this book 9/10.

This is why I can't escape from this book.

Wherever I go, I should bring this book, even if I only will flip a few pages but it bring me to read more and more!

Two thumbs up for the author and I hope Dee could come with an english version so that everybody will be able to read this book! :):):)

I lost half pieces of my part

2010-06-11T19:08:00.002+08:00

It sound very annoying and uncomfortable when regrets and guilty came across to you.

It's been a few hours after I realize my beloved darling, C-902 was gone..

My first impression when I knew it, I am dead.

I knew, I will survive without a phone for two or three days, but not in such of this situation.

It will not appear forever in my life anymore.

It doesn't matter about buying a new one to replace it.

I just felt that, my memories are taken away by the phone it self.

Every pictures and texting messages inside my phone was gone..

I can't remember when the last time I wanted to change it..

It still new for me.. It has been for 1 year always beside me.. but, my darling is somewhere outside there right now.

Even in my dream, I kept thinking about it. I miss you, my phone. I really do.

The next thing that I always hope and pray is just a miracle.

A miracle that someday, someone will return it to me.

*sigh*

hmmm, over all.. I lost 2 phone in Malaysia for 3 years. Great!

Mummy scold me, everyone said I am careless and Yes, I am careless.

*sigh*

Every sentence that came out from my words are written with sadness and guilty.

Hope I can forgive my self, and I can hold for the miracle to come.

I miss you my phone. I really do! :(

Love

Christin Natalia, Kang

Make a Wish

2010-06-07T00:53:00.003+08:00

Source: http://www.flickr.com/photos/rahee_nerurkar/3286366644/

When everybody are busy with their wish lists, the first thing that I would like to wish is:

1. I wish I can have a brilliant brain in term of study, career, and life plus an humble heart!

wohoooo~~~~

Everybody is shouting out for HOLIDAY!

2010-06-02T14:54:00.023+08:00

Kind of thousand years didn't update my blog till i almost forget the password its.

Well, I suppose to do my work but the feeling has always come and hit me.

I have totally no mood on doing anything..

I have been drag my self to write this blog, so i don't feel guilty because at least I am doing something today. :D

So yea, anyway, it's been my own principles for this year ( i guess)

NO SHOPPING equals to TRAVELING

Degree life almost killing me off for a few months ago...

I never expect the things will be this tough..

Up and down, tears and happiness appear during this period and I am getting bored of it!

So, let's discuss our plan to go HOLIDAY baby! :)

Boyfriend has plan to go Langkawi.. Rumors said it's a heaven of liquor.. AND it's cheaper than duty free! Wohoo~~!! =D

Sounds great right? hmm, bunch of groups will pop up and going for this trip..

Yet, the sad things is I can't be able to join them.. :(

Langkawi (sources taken from Google.com)

Will promise you to come along in the next trip ya... :D

Feel sad because i need to miss one of the nice part after college, but there's the reason why behind it.. Thanks for the understanding! =D

So yea, move on! Plan 2... ^^

It's cameron highland.. It's my desire to go to this place.. The green, strawberries, cold, and peaceful! :D

It's cameron Highland, Babe! =D

(Sources taken from Google)

Plan 3, from the up let's go to down..

PD...!!! Went here for few times but I want to enjoy and stay there for one day! can I? hahahahha... :D

Portdickson

Plan 4, Even though I am Indonesian... But, I haven't been to here before...

Hell ya! I want to go Bali and enjoy the beach + shooppinngggg.... :) :)

Plan 5, It's time to go Bandung! Againn...!!

The food, the place, friends, and shopping of course! Looking forward for the correct time so that I can come and visit this city...

It will always full with traffic jam but this place is really nice...

Bandung

Plan 6,

As what Mum has promisee me, after dad recover and come back as normal...

Time for us to go have fun and enjoy our days... :D

Hongkong or Taipei...?

I wish the time will come. Hoping daddy will totally recover from his sickness and he can enjoy his life with his beloved wife.. additionally with us, the children.. :) and his grandchild.. :)

I hope this is not just a plan but I wish I can go to all of this place for this year! ;)

Saving money first ya....!! =)

That is it

2010-05-08T19:43:00.003+08:00

I am not gonna let my self down

because I know I aim to do better than previously.

Thanks for the shock therapy,

but I ll promise my self to be great than what you expected.

Because I am not ordinary.

=) DID YOU HEAR THAT???

Special thanks to people that helped me out from the darkness :) :)

Note: Happy Mother's day and Happy Birthday to my beloved brother.. Wish you all the best..! :)

Happy 26 years old,

and be a good father in the next few months.. :)

We love you, brother =)

Stupidity

2010-05-07T18:18:00.004+08:00

The pain is really killing me slowly inside and outside.

It's not even 1 week i came back from the holiday last two weeks, and now i need to suffer again.

I miss the previous time when I was chilling in my hometown.

Cooking, gardening, relaxing, jogging, playing around.

I can do anything like I wish..

I was totally free during that time.

I miss the oldies part when I can see my face laughing and smile every time.

I hate the reality and I hate depression.

I hate emo time and I hate to play around with my own imagination.

Frankly, I really hate with what I am doing now...

Typing out all my sickness in front of public..

And people will laugh on my weaknesses side.

Great and awesome..!!

Thumbs up for the life! Thanks

Quote of the day

2010-05-06T19:42:00.004+08:00

People say, "What you planted that what you will get."

and what do you think?

PS: is my English that bad? Hmm, I need to do something with that, thou..

Think again

2010-05-05T11:21:00.004+08:00

Your attitude is describing the real of WHO you are.

Devil could cover their face with a thick mask and show off the angel side.

But, the thing is how long devil could cover the mask?

Sooner or later, the stink will be found out.

There are devils everywhere... and am I a devil too?

2010-05-01T15:57:00.002+08:00

F*** Off...!!! :(((((((((((((((((((

2010-04-22T03:08:00.003+08:00

It's glad to know that I am still alive..

Breathing normally in every second that I have.

Looking forward for the better future. ~ and this is what all people wanted, so do I.

Happy Holiday, pips!

Enjoy and relax for the next waves!

I used to it, sleep in the morning 6am will become my habit.

Thanks for the beloved pills. :X

Diary

2010-04-07T23:11:00.003+08:00

I try to be passion. I try to be relax and hope everything gonna walk smoothly.
I try to facing the truth and hope for the best.
But...
Why everything need to be so complicated?

I always remember my dad wise word:
'Don't ever keep your problem inside your heart'
He makes this things to be logic. Because whatever problem that you kept inside, it just made you stress and by the time goes by, you feel pain and it became cancer.

Well, it is quite true.

But, How I suppose to tell anyone about my feeling when me, my self, also unsure about my feeling?

Whatever it is, the fact is trying to kill me.
I just want anything to become normal.
I want to see happiness come back into my life, and no more trouble come and hit me and my family.
The world is just unfair.

I wish I am in the beach rite now.
Shouting loudly and cry as many as i can.
I am just too tired of everything.

(sigh)

No matter how strong I am, I am just a human.
T.T

(God, give me strength plis...)

:(

I, You, We, and They

2010-04-07T12:36:00.004+08:00

I am busy
You are busy
We are busy
They are busy
So... WHO care about that?

2010-04-06T16:10:00.004+08:00

Everything is just too much...
I am lost...
And I can't decide which way i need to go..
Can I hiding somewhere to seek a peaceful?
*sigh! :( :(

8 months

2010-04-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

Happy Anniversary, darling ku!!! :) :) :)

I Love you! =)

Happy easter too,pips! :)

Blame on me!

2010-04-02T17:22:00.001+08:00

A lazy pig is lazying on doing the assignments..

No Me Ames - Love is Color Blind

2010-03-26T19:37:00.005+08:00

No me Ames ( Don't love me)

An old song from J-Lo, but it has fully meaning.

Flash back to few years ago.. When me and my sister enjoyed this song, we had an idea to learn Spanish language.

It is pretty cool when you can speak multi language. :) :)

I feel, song could engaged different people into one soul.

Even though we have different tone color, different language, and different perception towards each other

, but song could emerged it.

The other song: Love is Color Blind by Sarah Corner & TQ..

When I seek for the official MV - This video contains content from Sony Music Entertainment. It is no longer available in your country.

Well, I am quite disappointed with this.. Last year, when I seek this song in Youtube, the MV was still there..

*Sigh.. It was really a good video clip.. The picture show how's our love to be unity.

The lyrics remind us about NO more discrimination.

"It don't matter if your black,

white or yellow, if your brown or red

Let's get down to that

Love is color blind"

A good beginning for us to understand that We are all are the same.. and it's time to change, yow..

Even though it is easy to say out about this..

But to be honest, I am still I am..

The perception that grown up from I was young, made me hard to change it..

(It could be a random thinking AGAIN, when I need to do some important stuff)

*sigh...

But I am happy to share those songs..

Hope all of you like it too.. =) :) ;)

Happy Weekendd.... ~~~~

(when everybody are tired and stress,

turn on ur iTunes and lets listen to music..

It could help you to release your stressful)

2010-03-24T20:18:00.002+08:00

Ow yea, please Kill Me....!!! *sigh

2010-03-23T18:46:00.007+08:00

"We are the one 25 for Haiti"

I have addicted with this song from the first time I look at the video clip in TV.

The 25th Anniversary recording features over 80 artists and performers, purposely release the prominence song from Michael Jackson. By using the same concept like what Michael Jackson did for charity single originally recorded by supergroup USA for Africa in 1985.

A really big project by US artists that conscious with Haiti condition.

Download for donate check out this website and look into the meaning from this charity.

Well done people, i think they have a really good job to help them.

They are just awesome! Combination of pop, RnB, and others genre music.

A random thinking

2010-03-23T17:55:00.005+08:00

'The more you proud on your successful diet, the more you get in to addiction.'

Well, a simple quote that i found while i am doing my assignment.

It's true thou. Don't you think so?

This is where Eating disorders come.

You can't escape from that circle.

You will suffer without any reasons.

It's caused a death and this is why I like my housemate t-shirt:

'Diet will start tomorrow'.

It's good when you wanna look beauty with the guitar shape body, but it's hard to control your diet when you are too excited into it.

Doesn't matter how's your look today, I think it's time for us to be reality.

Diet won't make you happy. It's just a temporary happiness.

Worst come to worst, you will suffer in the future, i guess.

I mean, I agree that diet is worth it when you wanna cut down some weight.

But I scared the more you like it, the more you hard to escape from that habit.

In conclusion,

back to you then..

Will you go for it or receive what you already have.

Because you are just like what he created.

Unbelieveable

2010-03-23T00:34:00.012+08:00

Believe it or not, ' I miss my internship times'

Well, wake up in the morning wasn't a matter for me.

It is a good thing when you wake up in the morning and do your activities.

I called it as graceful of what God gave you. 'Shiny Sun in the morning'

I am not really miss the tasks in my previous company actually.

But frankly, I miss my journey on internship times.

AND

I MISS THE PEOPLE THAT I MET.

Woke up in the morning, bath, and run for the train.

Sometimes if raining days will be worst.

Sardine human are all in one KTM.

The journey for 1.5 hours to go to the office, make me realize

'Will this the beginning of working life?'

Holding a diploma certificate or Degree certificate won't guarantee you to have a good job like what you aspect.

Start a new career from 0 level will make you understand, 'How the real world is..'

*Well, it just a random thinking from me*

Anyway, I miss them!!!!!

My leisure time when i spent with this 3 girls...

Jane, Ash, and Mami...

The day when we went work together.

Waiting for the KTM around 7 o'clock in the morning everyday.

Noon time is a tea time for us while waiting for the stupid KTM uncrowded.

Saturday night is a gathering time. Shopping, makan, movie day, lepak or even Sisha.

We were eating at Murni

( I notice, I seldom take picture with you, Jane!)

We should take more and more tho... hahaha :) :)

Our pancake's day. 1 plate share 2. hahaha :)

I just realize Ash, we more spend our time on the food, especially cakes...

( you made me bankrupt sometimes.. LOL) =)

Ash was introducing her new can coffee maker from her company.

I still kept it nicely and a bit dusty inside my room. hahaha :)

Well, seriously.. I miss this time A LOT!

Wew, first time I went full house.. and we are slumber... hahaha

Both of them left us :(

A shopaholic in Malaysia ( LOL)

Would it be a Ladies night again like last time??

Mostly, this is what we can't do again. The whole group are in one group.

Would it be happen again?

Wait and see then.

Questions

2010-03-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

AGAIN...!! The FACT is killing me, and I still haven't believe all of this.

I could imagine, there's no more smile show up from his lips.

I could imagine, when he knew the result is, his spirit might flew and gone.

BUt....

Nothing much we could do for now.

We have been tried to do all that we could do, only for you daddy.

I've been thinking about this a lot times,

God might have a plan behind this. I believed that.

However, i just can't ready to hear and see the facts.

I miss my daddy when he was smiling.

I miss him when he complain anything that i did wrong.

I miss him when he take care for all my things.

I miss when he said 'Time for sleep, tomorrow you need to go school'

I miss when we watch action movie together. The only movie can make his eye awake when midnight time.

I am proud to be his daughter.

He is such a really BEST father ever.

He never smoke, drink, gambling, went to club, or those kind of things.

Ow, He never CHEAT or flirting with other girls,anyway.

He's really a good husband.

FYI, I could survive in Malaysia for 3 years over here.

It's because of him. He is my sponsorship.

If i could begging God right now, I want my previous daddy.

Daddy healthiness, daddy smile, daddy spirit.

He just too sick of these stupid cancer.

He will reach 60 years old for this year.

Why daddy must suffer for all of this?

It's time for him to enjoy his old days. Can't he enjoy this?

Stay in hospital for months and do operations again are not a great answer.

I was wondering, Could mum stand by it?

Plenty of questions inside my mind.

Plenty of wishes i have for my family.

I love them. and I love daddy so much.

Be strong daddy..!! I knew you will be like oldies day. :)

I love you, daddy. Aya sayang papa...!!!!

2010-03-14T00:13:00.003+08:00

I believed every single steps that we choose has consequences.

When daddy decided to do not choose chemo for the next step, I never thought that it will be happened like this.

No matter how strong was daddy last time, I think he also will feel down AGAIN! :(

The brighter light will be shown.

Gambatte daddy !!! I know you can keep your spirit ON as usual.

I still wanna do some adventure around the world with you!

Remember this??

Korea? Japan? Melbourne? Sydney? or Europe?

ONE of this place will be our target in this year daddy, we SHOULD...!!

I love you daddy. I will always do.

I hope the stupid result was wrong!!

2010-03-10T10:53:00.003+08:00

He teaches us to care, share, forgive and Love each others.

2010-03-01T23:28:00.005+08:00

I might be MIA for a few months or maybe a year or whatever how long that was.

But I am still ALIVE! I can breath and smell the fresh air in the morning.

I can cooked my breakfast and went to college for the first day in 2010. Well, I wish these will be a good step for me to continue another 1.5 years a head.

This is maybe a tough beginning for me or the rest too(i guess), but I believe we can pass through this all together.

This is our bridge to start seeking an information for the next steps.

Watch out and aware of your chances. There's a lot and bunch of chances out there! Catch it and improve it!

Study smart, play hard, and work hard too!

Keep it up, world...!

I am back for my real world. How bout you?

Toddles,

Love you! =)

2010-02-28T00:56:00.001+08:00

I wish I am NOT alone to night. >.<

2010-02-28T00:07:00.007+08:00

Its been a new day for me.
Time has been changed and keep ticking without permission.
Another day is started and I am still over here.
I have a new change to renew my oldies days to be a great one.
I did a lot mistakes (uncountable i guess) I believe so do you.
What would you do to erase your mistakes? To clear all your sins?
None of us in this world are clean from sinfulness. I believe on that.
After you promise to do not repeat the same things, will you guarantee you won't do it again?

Lets start to count our mistakes start from you were baby. I was born like a small tiny baby, white or pinkish (I am not sure about this)* I was just like a blank paper. No ink, no dust, and no stink on it. It was clear and clean. I am proud when I was born into this world. I am a new member in my family where I belongs to. I am a new happiness for them. Slowly I grew up to learn how to smile, say 'Mama' & 'Papa', and bla bla bla Till now, i am sitting in degree level for better education. And how about the clear paper last time? Ow, you can imagine the paper is being an old paper and it was full with ink and dusty. Can you imagine that?

Life is stiff and you need to survive to fulfill your journey. No matter what, He is still with you rite here and keep an eye to protect you. That's what his duty on you.

2010-01-17T23:56:00.002+08:00

I hate the line connection over here.

I hate my hair fall syndrome.

>.<

Happy birthday to my beloved friend and my housemate.

Happy 20th years old. Have a blast and be the girl,yow! =)

Cheers up! :)

Welcome to 2010

2010-01-10T21:30:00.017+08:00

The Ultimate December 2009 with my beloved, family, and best friends.

I believe these pics gonna be my history, the unforgettable moment for me and for the rests.

Something special doesn't mean expensive or exclusive.

Just a simple plan with the greatest people around you, it makes ordinary day to be extra ordinary.

The time passed by and yesterday became a history for me.

19.12.09 (Dad and sister, in her wedding) ^^

Happy Wedding and have a good one in build your new family. :)

My 20th birthday, thank you people! :)

22.12.09

24.12.09

Merry X'Mas in the town with craziest people in the world. :)

Thanks for the cake, anyway.. =)

Christmas present from bf =)

(Thanks for my birthday present too, di do! :) I like it! Thanks a lottt!!! :) :))

It doesn't make sense, but I believe on this:

The older you are, the harder problem will come and chase you.

AND FINALLY...

Welcome to 2010 =)

Today is the tenth days of 2010,

What's your wishes then?

Hang your wishes as high as you can and as much as you can

Learn how to fly and reach it so that you will be success in the future.

Stay healthy people,

Take care

and Toddles.. ^^

2009-12-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

The fact is hitting me and make me weak.

The truth is telling me but my quality.

Its kill me slowly. Gosh!

Thank you for your support! =)

Love you!

2009-12-04T12:32:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!

PS: Thank you for the surprise on 3rd Dec 2009.

It was really my day,

my advance birthday wishes from the dreamer

and my 4th anniversary months with my boyfriend.

I love you guys

and

I love you, Di! :)

Yesterday was a history

Tomorrow is a mystery

and Today?

Today is a gift for me and you! =)

Have a nice day people!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2010..

2009-11-21T19:30:00.003+08:00

I wish I could watch this movie before I leave..

It will released on the cinema on 27 November 2009 in Malaysia

Compare to other country, Indonesia is showing this movie.

It is not unfair.. T.T

Cheers

2009-11-21T12:33:00.009+08:00

"Semester over. Thanks for being my friend.

Without you guys I wouldn't be who I am today."

13 Nov 2009 ~ 14:11

(quoted from one beloved friend, Mr.XXX)

A big surprise and shock when he sent this to all of us.

I am glad to be here and stand in the circle of this relationship.

Thank you is a big credit for me.

Who am I today is also supported by them.

And I think it's my time to say 'Thank you' for all of my beloved friends.

Sweet, sour, bitter and all those feeling were always came to us.

Fighting, argue, quarrel, and disappointed were sometimes happened

among us too,but we need to learn from that.

It was a complementary powder to make our friendship taste to be a delicious friendship.

Flash back from 2,5 years ago. We didn't know each others and to be honest

I did thought wrong about my classmates.

By the times it goes and passed by please think about this:

Egoism

Ambition to be the winner

The scapegoat

Jealousy

are the most selfish characters happened among our friendship.

Didn't you think so?

However now I realize that ''Life is beautiful and amazing''.

No one could pay and buy for these experiences.

~Toddles~

All I need is You

2009-11-11T21:20:00.006+08:00

Have you ever hear 'Daddy' or 'Mommy'?

Even animals also have this feeling.

I believe that all of us are glad and be thankful to have them until this moment.

Mum and Dad are our heroes.

They always try to do the best for their children even though they need to sacrifice themselves.

There are many cases the mother or father willing to give their live for the daughter / son.

This is what we call 'LOVE'.

No one in this world could change this cycle.

And to night, I am.....

Driving into the past and collecting all those pieces of my memories...

Once I found it...

There is only 2 sentences I would like to say out :

'Thank You'

- Thank You to the Creator that has given a chance for me to have my complete family until this moment.

- Thank You to my dad that he still has the passion and strength to fight with the sickness.

- Thank You to my mum that always be ready and passion in all condition.

- Thank You to my sis and my bro to be always take care and help me.

- Thank you to my di that always be beside me, give me an advice, and care for me.

- Thank you for all of my friends and my best friend that always support me especially in this moment.

A big thankful for those miracle that I have.

Not every body will have the same chance like me.

I am blessing.. and I am happy to be here around these angels.

All I need is You..

Thank you people.

Note:

Dady, I know you are strong. I know you can handle this. Fight with it.

I will always be beside you, dady because I love you.

Stay healthy and be strong, dad.

We love you... =)

(Thank you, Di.. I need you! )

Cheers,

- Aya -

2nd week of November 2009

2009-11-09T00:24:00.004+08:00

Another week is coming...

All the best for those students that having paper for this week...

Study hard, study smart, pray hard, and play hard too! :) :) :)

The ticking time is calling us to do better than previous semesters..

Our last week for our final semester.

Always hope for the best, plan for the worst..

Toddles! =) and nitez...

Special for you: Take care and Get well soon... ^^

(Hope my dad can recover soon too! *sob*)